His Amazing Grace – Teaching Me to Walk

Waking up early this morning I find the warmth of a cup of warm tea to be so inviting.  For the 2nd day, I decide on the mug that my daughter gave me last Christmas that had the title of my favorite gospel song “Amazing Grace” printed on it with a portion of the lyrics on the inside “Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far and grace will lead me home”

Those words provide a sense of peace, reminding me of how far I have traveled on my journey, with God at my side.  I still struggle with why God allows abuse to occur, most especially with people who claim to wear the badge of Christian armor.  The hypocrisy that a Christian could be one way in church then turn on dime when leaving the doors of worship stumped me for many years.  I wasn’t able to understand the rationale of why or how people could play act a role for a few hours, then become someone else, that displayed that they really were not the reflection of what they wanted others to see them as in their everyday life.

Stumped as I was, I did make a decision when I was 14 that I would commit my life to follow Christ.  I wanted to lead a life that would honor God yet allow me to live a life with  peace and joy.  It was a tough road.  I had no mentor or role model.  However, my heart was beating strong for God’s truth and healing.  Previously I found myself accepting what I could not change, caring a burden of pain that was crushing me, yet finding ways to deal and cope and believing that “someday” God would use my experience in a way that would allow me to become the beautiful person He desired me to be.

I find that today my faith continues to grow strong, although I experience from Christians and non-Christians alike, that one can still be judged, abused and treated poorly.  Hypocrisy is a character trait that seems to indwell in all human life, from judgment to gossip to the act of lying in order to make one look better than another.  It is a heart issue that one must listen to.  I find that Romans 14:13 says it best “Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother’s way.”

In order to grow I needed to grow beyond what I was taught of accepting pain from others, and responding defensively out of hurt.  I had to learn to treat others in love, in a way that I would want to be treated.  I try to live by the scripture verse of John 13:34 that shares “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another”.  It’s not an easy choice to love when treated wrong, yet we are not asked to love the act, but rather to love the person.

Although our response and actions should be an act of love, I have yet to find a scripture verse that states it is okay to be a doormat to those who undermine, abuse or treat you wrong.  It is okay to have a voice that speaks out with confidence in order to say “no”.

How have I moved forward from the young girl, scarred from youth, into a world that is lacking in love?  I made a choice to live a life that shares love and compassion with an effort to live in harmony with others.  I will defend myself and those I love with a tender heart and a voice of strength. I am not perfect, I make mistakes, but I keep moving forward accepting God’s grace in my life.  “I once was lost but now am found, was blind, but now, I see…”

May you find harmony and love within your life.


Romans 12:16 ” Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.”


Amazing Grace Lyrics

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T’was Grace that taught…
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear…
the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares…
we have already come.
T’was Grace that brought us safe thus far…
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me…
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be…
as long as life endures.

When we’ve been here ten thousand years…
bright shining as the sun.
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise…
then when we’ve first begun.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me….
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.



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