Tonight, as I prepare to rest for the night, I review everything that I was able to accomplish. Between completing the tax return, chores, sewing projects, and making ahead a few food items for the week, I feel as though I accomplished a great deal. In less than 24 hours I will have had my shoulder worked on and repaired, resulting on my need to depend on my husband a little more than normal.
When I finally made the decision to follow through in having this procedure, after trying the many other different therapy options that helped very little, I was looking forward to how much better my shoulder was going to feel. Reality is setting in as I prepare to rest.
As I try to remove my wedding band, despite all efforts throughout the day, it refuses to leave my finger. It’s not as if it’s the first time I’m having a surgical procedure. I also have complete confidence in my surgeon. Yet, as the ring stays in place I am reminded of my own stubborn ability to accept change.
Tomorrow I will return home unable to use my prominent arm. This is a temporal adjustment, one in which every possible daily task that I will encounter, has been considered. Eating will be entertaining, writing will have to wait, typing will be a challenge, reaching for items on a shelf will not happen, and the list goes on.
Change provides an opportunity to utilize the gift of humility to better oneself. I will be okay depending on my husband for more than I normally do in the course of a day. I will ignore or giggle at his attempts to fold laundry, tolerate the dust kitties (might even give them names), and accept what I cannot change.
Yes, I had plans to work on some hand sewing or cross-stitch, yet my first objective will be to rest, slowly exercise as permitted, and allow myself to heal. The things I enjoy in life, the intricate stitches of hand work can wait, yet will be more greatly appreciated when I have enough use of my arm to start working on them.
Change allows us to chip away at the pride within, in order to accept what others have to offer to us, so that we may grow.