We wake up refreshed and ready to start our day. With many things to be thankful for, and with the energy to go the distance, we venture out. Our attitude is light, positive and joyful, yet you then encounter something that causes the course of your plans to back slide. Bummer!!
That’s what happened to me today. It’s been a long year of trying different things to improve some painful joint issues I’ve been dealing with. The past few months I followed through with some new changes where today I was given a “new” plan. Not really what I was expecting and a little disappointed. Okay, let me be honest, I was not thrilled and left quite frustrated with tears in my eyes as I drove home. Despite my frustration and need to cry, followed by verbally vocalizing “it’s not fair”, I pulled myself together as I thought through what I was told and had learned.
I am one of those people who needs time to process and think through what might at first be disappointing and difficult to accept. As I go through this thought process, I try to look beyond my own guarded thoughts and feelings, to open myself up to accept what I cannot change, while I attempt to understand a little more of what I had missed. Sometimes I will engage my husband’s thoughts, not really asking for the answer, but rather provide a listening ear.
I still have a lot to think about and ponder the options in front of me. Taking the time to contemplate what is in front of me is actually a positive opportunity. I’m not rushed into something I’m not ready to undertake. I have the choice to say yes or no to the options. Both will result in two totally different outcomes, but I am fortunate to have a choice.
By the way, I will not present myself as always being calm and accepting of change. Some things do ruffle my feathers still, but I’m a work in progress. One day at a time, as I work on improving where I might have failed the day before. I have people who love me enough to not sugar coat when I am over-reacting. And I find that I can sometimes laugh at myself when I realize my fault. Yet, eventually, over the course of time, I can see that I am improving.
“Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds you plant” ~ Robert Louis Stevenson ~
Look beyond the negative while you seek the opportunity to grow as a person,